the long weekend

here wishing everybody belated christmas! oops! =x too late i know.
because i have been bz over the week...

21 December 2012
was having christmas gathering in the office. Buffet, Gift exchange and lucky draws. though there are around 40 staff attending and 10 plus of lucky draw prize, i didnt manage to win any. many of the colleagues told me there a "curse" in the office. which is, normally the new staff who got the big prize, will either resigned or tender the following year. Perhaps, that's the reason why i didnt manage to win any. i was kinda emo as i wanted the 3rd prize, which is the XBox (i told my bf about the lucky draw prize and he got the same thought as me to have to XBox). so after the event, i went back to my office, and i was telling myself, how can it be? not even a chance to win any thing? therefore, i throw the lucky draw paper name on my paper and pick any one. you guess what? i got my name. the feelings was like, WTF? haha. anyway, it's over.
the party started at 7pm and i told the caterer to come back at around 10pm to collect. End up, the party end at 8 plus. i was like, WTF, so early. tried calling the office main line, couldnt get through, if not i will have told them to come and collect immediately. Ended up, i have to stay in my office to wait for them to reach at 10. anyway, it still ended well.

22 December 2012
supposed to go to my sister's church at 4pm. But ended up kinda lazy, so i decided to stay at home to slack. =x feel kinda bad though. guess there's nth much for me to say on this date, as i have already update in your previous post?

23 December 2012
Another day of slacking at home? i guess? nothing to do, so have been singing K at home recently.

24 December 2012- THE CHRISTMAS EVE TO 25 December 2012
It's good that my current company give all of us a half day off. and i actually applied for another half day of leave. this is a day of celebration at Gwen's house. with the christmas theme of "movie character 2012". as i cant thought of any, so they actually allowed me to dress up any shows character in 2012. and i chose Vivian. Vivian was acted by Ann kok in 9PM show with a very thick and ugly make up. perhaps, many people will think why i want to make myself look ugly? that's my style i guess? it's fun.


one of the pic i got from my FB. haha! i guess many ppl wanna laugh.

this day, is not only just a christmas, it's also proposal of my friends! Jesmin and Alwi.
 

I really find that she looks pretty with make up on. =P
whenever seeing my friend's proposal, i will always feel so touched to the extend of crying. too happy for them. that they finally found their love one.

Every christmas, i will always celebrate with my 10 years of friendship friends. unfortunately, not this year.
and i am not invited. perhaps it's all bcox i told them not to invite me? at first, they still tried for once or twice, after that, nothing done. and they really did it. now, no matter what the occasion is, no more invitation from them, and perhaps, they have already forgotten that i exist? This year, it's a different christmas for me, feel kinda weird. i wanted to msg them, but, my thumb is too stubborn to click "send". i guess, none of us wanna give in.

the little kids

a saturday which i decided to stay at home the whole day in the end. whereby i should be otw to my sis church..... haha... kinda lazy to go out....
my bf who has 1 nephew and 2 nieces. the 2 nieces went pasir ris for chalet, which i am home with just the nephew. was lecturing him a moment ago of being a nice boy. when i asked him, " did you realized the treatment we gave to his 2 sisters are totally different away from him? and im sure you feel miserable why does this happen right?" after saying this sentence, his eyes were full of tears rolling at the corner of his eyes, i guess he really dont know why. so i actually explain nicely to him, and finally he understand. but im not sure so much does he really understand. hopefully he can really be a gd boy soon.
he is not naughty, he's just playful.
actually he is very clever, just that he's too lazy.
if he wants, he can study very well and get gd result.

yesterday the dreamt i had wake me up in the middle of myself sleep with tears. was dreaming of celebrating christmas with that group of my old friends. they disappear without telling me and left me alone there. i felt so miserable after that dream. till now, of course i will still miss them. several time, i thought of msg her to ask how is she. but i hold back in the end. just like today, i open up her whatsapp and thought of msg her, but i didnt. im thinking, perhaps they have just forget about me and my presence. and they dont need me as a friend. after that misunderstanding incident which caused the friendship to end, i was still in contact with Huina for a short period, and after that, it become silence. we got no more contact with each other. and now, no matter what event they have, and we used to have, they dont even bother to invite me anymore. perhaps they get tired of me rejecting them too. how i wish they could try a bit harder. but no, they didnt.
i am already not angry with the issue we had, just that she felt that there is a gap between us. which makes her think that we should draw a line in between. we used to be so good and close. and we used to be bff.
but now, no more. and i guess never will.
and she was never the one that insulted me, and i have never thought that she was the one. up till now, i know she will never be the one that will insult or make a joke on me. but maybe she thought she was the one i said. i dunno..... i did explained to her, but she dont seems to get it. anyway, the friendship just ended this way by the insulting joke by someone's husband-to-be. the guy is really a xxxxx. honestly speaking i really dislike him.in some way he acted, it seems so fake. whereby, the gal cant see i guess. even that gal is my bff used to be, i also wont say much bad things about that guy no matter what. no matter how much i wanted to tell her to reconsider, i also didnt say a single word. because i know when someone who is deeply in love with somebody, she cant take in what i will say. a guy who has to drink like almost everyday, the photos that he posted on fb with another gal hugging so closely taking a pic, i really cant take it. since my bff used to be could take it, i will just keep quiet. just hope that she didnt chose the wrong guy.

what is christmas with them?
i wont say anything...... perhaps, your had just forgotten me.......
a life without you all...... what friends are for?
sigh~~~~ no wonder people always say, one or 2 good friends are more than enough......
but i dont seems to have any i guess.....

Thoughts after reading some article

was reading the story of "Alvin and Yuki" recently. this was intro by my bf.
i really dont under why must be ZR do this to someone getting married in 2 months time.
after reading all the story, i started to feel kinda depressed.
was asking myself, do i really want to get married? Im a gal, of course i can feel how she felt.
really scare that this will happen to me too. i hesitated.....
i believe, no one will able to take this kinda blow.
quite scary........
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yesterday before i fall aslp, i saw sth on fb which makes me awake. im not going to say what i saw. bcox social network can be very scary. but all i could say is, as a gal, you really gotta think of what you really want in life. things like that, you shouldnt do it and let everyone misunderstand you.
it's not really nice to be a "3". in fact, being "3" is really ugly. never thought of how ppl would think of you? perhaps you just dont care.so i also cant be bothered.

i think sth is really wrong with the younger generation ppl now. they do things really out of their mind. what is so fun playing around with relationship and being a "3" in between ppl.

today should be a happy day! so i will stop all the negative comments here.
while waiting for the office christmas gathering, here i am writing my blog.  will be doing some gift exchange and lucky draw later! yeah!
guess the programme recently will be really pack! going my sister's church tml to watch her performance. though i kinda lazy and unwanted to go. haha.

every body was saying 21 december 2012 will be the last day of the world.
my bf was so sweet that he posted on my fb and write

"Dear please be home tonight before 2359hrs. In case if really end of the world at least I can hug you tightly and leave the world together. "

i feel so touched and almost cried. of course, i didnt! because i was in my office. we have been together for 1 and half year, we are still staying close and sweet and loving! i told him, if the world is going to end, i will feel lucky that i found him before the world end. because he is really a very nice bf. which i really hope A and Y story will not fall on us.

i love to cook for him, because he has never say nasty thing about my cooking. all his words are nice to my ears! haha.... and no matter what, he will finish up the food i cook for sure! ^^

going crazy with the load of work i got. everything have a deadline.
guess im going OT soon.
went for TIMES 2013 training course yesterday. 50% went into my mind.
as this is my first time doing IRAS for this company and Bonus, i am kinda stressed up now.
and not only for this company, also for my bf's company. which ARE 3 of them.... this is really hell for me men!
i am really afraid that i couldnt do a gd job.
nervous!!!! to the max....
well, no matter i am nervous or not, i still have to do it.
haiz...... still got so many things to do. and im going to rush for my closing tml. which needs to be emailed to Taiwan by thursday.

Finally got the time to update my blog....
was having exam for the past few days..... quantitative skills and Management.....
QS is very easy, while Management needs to memorize.
luckily the tips that the lecture gave us came out....... hopefully can get A's for both of my exams....

currently there is a one for one promotion for jetstar, booked tickets for thailand trip in May 2013.
kinda emo for a moment because going bangkok makes me thought of the previous trip that i went with fanjians group. Unfortunately, this group no long exist. it's some kinda misunderstanding and our thinkings are so different from the past. maybe, we just cant click with one another.

Been raining recently and i just cant leave office on time...... getting sick soon i guess?

was chatting with Jesmin yest via whatsapp, talking about money (Dog). she was the previous owner. it's kinda sad that she gotta give money away. due to her sis-in-law. i believe that she still miss money, just that she dont really show it out. kinda pity her.sigh~~~

my Future mother-in-law went to USA yesterday. sent her off at the airport and i realised that her dressing is really fashion compared to the other 2 aunties who are so much more younger than her.
kinda dont bear... haha
while me and eleen (my boyfriend's sis) on our way home, i told her that, i guess her husband (peter) will call and ask for her mum's car at 7pm as it's red plate. and i was right, 13 mins before 7pm, he called and asked for car. as he is an irresponsible driver, who always drink and drive, no one would want to lend him car.
just like the previous accident, he crashed her mother's car and didnt even care to ask how was the claim all that. and i really dislike him. he dont gain any respect from anybody.
he can even told his children that he went to jail before. how could he? is it very great of going to jail? and he can even told his children there is no need to study and even scolded them for revising early before school even started? what kinda father are you?

hoping that everything goes smoothly before she come back to singapore...... kinda scared of him....

狗咬吕洞宾啊。。。。。

i feel kinda lonely sometimes.....